Been a long day today..
Woke up in the morning heading to the morning assembly... Got to the office cleaning my office. It was so cold out there. Came back and had breakfast.
Actually, I don't remember much details about my days today because I am bothered right now.
Had gone outfield for mountain hiking and it wasn't a good one. Wouldn't be remembered as a good memory but you see, have NO FEAR man. You got to be stronger. Don't lay yourself down just because of those. I had my lesson yesterday to be able to embrace more people. It is hard man. like for real. Laid down on my bed after that hike and closed my eyes dipping into thoughts. Dipping myself into thoughts trying to calm myself down.. Trying to play my game. Trying to find ways to cool myself. Just closing my eyes.. thinking about what had happened and talking to myself.. relaxing myself... and even in all those while.. had to talk .. had to give reactions to not lose in this so called "competition".
You know what. Just getting straight to the point. I had those people out there like Song ui young. He was somewhat of same kind as him. Not knowing his fault. Being rude. Treating people on his own way. Making all things that happen around as if he was the one doing the correct things. Making himself looking good and all. You see, it's not like those people are the wrong ones to be considered in this society. There are lots of people who are like that and in order to live this life, I need to learn to adopt myself to learn to deal with such people.
First lesson over all, don't do acts that I will be embarrassed in front of other people. Get that straight. It doesn't mean that I have to be presentable all the time but well Im not sure if it is the correct lesson to adhere to but I guess there are something onto it. Not sure is this the right thing to do, as there could be people who I might feel more comfortable like Son but people who I may not want to show my shortcomings like oh. But you see after all, you got to deal with those people. I am actually thankful to Lord that I am always given the opportunity to learn to deal. Army is not the end of my life. This is where I came to learn to deal with people. I am going to learn to live together with people that's my fate. I am not going to try to change others but I am going to make things evolve around me such that things go smooth and can co-exist. I am going to make that happen not just in the army but even after May 15th of 2018.
Just making things straight to the point, me going there ignoring him or showing my grunts will never happen again. I am going to learn to deal with him so I am going to be stronger and going to learn. I am not weak. Just make sure you treat him right with manners as a senior no matter how he treats me as the junior.
That was such relieving and painkilling words.
I am making it.
I am making it happen.
Thanks for living today dear me.
Love myself.
Amen.
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