Been long!
I am here at this comfy room of my sister where I spent those holidays whenever I was serving in the army, being an insecure secondary school student and even now.
the last time I wrote a story was month ago. 315 days and now 257 going to head to break the 250 line. and the guilt is in me when I am writing this diary as I could feel that I have trouble typing in fluent English right now.
Although my last post was 7th of July, I only remember myself to be writing a post after the U-20 Worldcup ended. Just to compare what has changed from then to now, I've done more than 50% of my service, I've got to know and got closer to some of my junior soldiers, learned lifelong lessons like to understand another person's feelings(maybe not), not worrying too much, and trying to lead things to something positive.
And yeah, I got awkward with that one brother I was so close to. I am not overly sad about it but yet I was missing those times with him where I would have that ultimate fun in the bunk. As times pass, and as my thought that the way we got weird was very weird on his side, and seeing him getting along very well with other mates and I'm the only one he tried to avoid, I only grew mad at times. However, I reached the stage where I do not madly wish to get closer to him like last time as I began to accept the reality but will just see how things flow and do not go against the gravity of time.
And today I am here waiting for time to pass, so I could meet my bunk buddies for this big event, Korea vs Iran Worldcup qualifier R9. I am kind of the host for this outing as i wanted my mates to see with their eyes and enjoy what football is and also to support the dangered Korean team as a team! This outing could have got very unwilling for me if my vibe of sadness due to sandeul had continued to overwhelm me but i overcame it through positivity. Positivity is always the key.
Will be seeing Jun tmr morning for Gangeung trip and I know any trip with him would be awesome. Will enjoy what I have today and love the world.
