Dawns in Daegu - D-442

I am back in here typing my diary in this blog once again. 

It's been such long long time since I typed my story in here. The newly updated computers were not compatible with google or any foreign sites but now that I've found this computer is compatible to foreign sites, I guess this could be my usual spot. Although the seat isn't perfect due to its arrangement that people who are waiting on queue like specialist Yoon, could watch what I was up to. 

Anyways, today was pretty much of a busy day at work. There wasn't much work to do but there were a lot of movements. I finished my 08~10 am duty in the morning at CASIC and headed back to office. People were all briniging their stuff down to the bunker. It was most likely for the preparation for the KR exercise. Then i went down to the bunker too and did minor stuff. Like preparing the laptops and all but as it was my first time and all I was a little lost. And seeing my senior having the relaxing chat with the officers, that could have got me jealous. But I wasn't. Because I know one simple rule. To wait. Enjoy the current of the sea and good things will follow on my pace when I can have them. 

Dealing life with my senirs have gotten smoother too. After all, they do like me. I do like them after all. That is easy ways for all of us. Always, whereever I go, let's do my best for myself. Not for my attitude and my reputation right here but for the habit of myself, for the future of myself.

Got back to the bunk being so hopeful to play futsal. You know, like always it happens, my mate Kim can get annoying. It was when I asked for some magnets that he tried to fool me and I was a little angry about it. But it was really small thing. Things do not matter so much. It was with such mind that I headed down to the court, and I wasn't so concentrated on the game. One simple rule. We don't get outside matters back into the field. We don't bring matters that happen on the field to the outside the field. Trying to think that I would score a goal against him or go hard on him and all these do not matter. They were totally unnecessary. Always know the difference and learn to segregate the two. 

Well, yeah. I do not care about what seniors say because it happens on the field. I would try and that's all that matters. I should learn to differentiate really.

Hope I can love myself and the others!

Thank God for this wonderful day I am given!

Thanks for the lessons too

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-443

I am back in here at my sweetie home using my old friend Samsung notebook to type out my story. I am relaxed and calm. I just got back from a night with the people from my platoon at skiing resort. This trip out to the ski resort was set departing from Son's idea. Four people gathered along the way and we gathered at the Gangnam station and rode the shuttle bus down to Jisan Resort. It was my first skiing experience. However, it was not just about skiing that mattered. It was not about the event that would make people excited but for me it was more about people around me. They were the nice people that I could easily hang out with people. However, with the recent well I'm not sure about this but yeah i was not doing good with Son and thus this trip from the beginning did not really excite me so much.

It was a night that I learned. I learned to ski. I learned that there are things to be learned. In awkward moments of people talking bad things behind their backs, I was able to keep myself to my belief and faith that I would not do such behaviors. In such awkward moments I kept myself and also maybe I could learn to deal with such situations as those are pretty often. I learned that I can keep myself strong. I am doing great and did what was right. I thank God for keeping me up right.

Well yeah maybe I could have got out of that situation more smoothly. Make things not so awkward and make it flow natural for everyone. But after all, we again think about the time that I will eventually be looking  back. Look at me now. Although I can't say that I am being as smooth as it can be in my own platoon, look at the times when I had troubles with Oh and Yoon. And look at myself now. Things do change from time to time. It is the mindset that affects and changes all. Just looking back at 25th February of 2017, this would just be a night that I had a night out with my mates, was my first skiing experience and saw how I was keeping myself up right. This would be remembered good. So leave no hatred or any anger within me from this moment.

I am no longer envious of any relationship.

I am no longer tied to this trip.

I have learned many.

Thank God for this trip in here and for a little sweet time that I can relax in my house.

Thank Lord and Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-447 (Written on 22nd Feb)

I am writing my diary in this naver letter mail because the newly changed computers are not compatible with foreign websites such as google or youtube.

It was long days of me not writting any diaries and now after some thoughts about it, I am finally writing them out.

Many things happened. First, I broke that 450 wall. I can't count how many days I have gone far with but as I see on Naver calculator, I am left with 447 days and so far I've completed the 190 days. So that would make 10 days to hit the 200 wall.

I've marched 30km, cut my hair, had some mood ups and downs and played lots of futsal. It's great that I can't remember a specific incident as army is all about not creating any mess. Well, on the other hand, it could also mean that I have been getting pretty much of erm.. tedious lifestyle. Things have become slightly tedious lately. Things I do and we do are all reptitive and all are predicted and same as per usual. That was when I began wanting for some loneliness and quiet time for my own. After all, it is great that I've got people around me. This bunk that I belong to are my family. It has come to that point where I began accepting them as my family.

I am grateful for this day that I actually began writing out my diary after long time. I hope I can take one great thing in everyday of my life.

I thank Gor for this day!

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-458

Here we have another day in this place. Yes. without realizing myself, I've hit the 450s line.

Well just after this coming week's strenuous marching and shooting drills it will be another momentary deal to be breaking the 450 line. Just after this month it will be much less time left.

So here is me in this cyber lounge writing about another day of mine. There isn't much to state. Things were smooth and I was learning all these while. I was getting better and was learning to love purely. Although it does not come in very handy but things will definitely get better I believe. Remember those days in Seminar room writing diary on my note. Things are much brighter than I do think. Don't get me wrong. It sounds like the words I am writing right now display what a bad day I had today but it never was. It was rather like a real great day. Had great time watching movies in the morning and going for futsal through the afternoon. And just like that, my another day is passing by.

I should really open up to what is coming. I love people so am I ready to accept the love. That's just all about it.

Had a great day and I am going to lead it to the next day.

Embrace more people forgive and love.

Thank Lord for this day.

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-459

So here I am here in the cyber lounge letting one of my days go.

I do not know how things made up to become the person who is standing right now. I am here being known as who I am right now to the people around me. Ever since I got here, there were this and that and those did help me to grow in some ways and did make me a person for who I am known as to my friends. It is great that I managed to make a person who can be loved and can also share to love to the people around me.

However of course there are times when I do feel down. There are days that I solve myself even in the worst situation just after writing diaries and praying to God. But there are also times like yesterday and this day where I just find no clue. It isn't like I am going through something so serious or so bad but it is just that hmm just to jot down what I am going through is that things are perfect but just that whenever we play football or games he would just blame on me or talk in an insensitive ways. I did not like that. I noticed it long before but I didn't care because I didn't wanna lose a friend just because of the moment. But when moment gathered up to be moments it made me look back to times when I was treated that way and make me to conclude the person. Well, all these actions root up from me deciding that I do not want this anymore. However yet he is a good friend after all. It is the thoughts at times that trigger me to reconsider about our friendship. Well, is this the same case for what happened between Shawn and I. I had lots of happy memories and moments with him when I was with him. But though, I had times when I was going down when I was with him. Those moments were too much to give up about our friendship but yet the thought of not wanting to be treated the same way made me to end it in a way. Well, I can't judge this decision was the best for both of us. It wasn't fair to Shawn in a way that he wasn't told what he was doing wrong and it wasn't fair to me to be treated that way.

What would I have done if I am going back to time. What I would have done instead? Well, I probably would have settled with by saying what I do not like and ending the day with joy at least. How can things be dealt for this time? Maybe I could do the same when it happens again? Because you see, treating my friend the same way as he treats me isn't what God taught us. I've loved people in my worst of time. Why not him who gives me joy and share big moments. It can't be a relationship that I just give in just for him being good friends. It has to be a win-win. Well, I can do this. I mean this is not something to ponder about so much. It isn't like there were anything wrong after all.

I can do this.

God is with me. So can I.

Love Lord for this wonderful day.

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-461

Finally I got to this website oh MY IT IS SO HARD JUST GETTING INTO THIS WEBSITE, I GUESS I SPENT LIKE 10MINUTES JUST TO LOG IN HERE.

Well yeah this is the thing that happens all the time when I am logging in here but yeah after all those will be memories too.

Was so wanting to write a diary and reflection of my day yesterday before my day was going to end yesterday but I didn't have enough time for it. I was getting facebook messages from my friends and long time friends and it was pretty much flooding. It was one feeling that I didn't use to get in a year. All these would end up in a short time.

It was glad though that Fariza contacted me. It was a huge joy. There were people that I may have lost contact along the way and those are especially the girls. I had troubles keeping girl friends on my side. They would be Fariza, Joyce and Sindy. It was easy getting close to them yet so hard to get them back. Each of them were like brothers and sisters to me that I had so much memories with them. Each of them, that I couldn't even count I had lots of happy memories with heart pounding once or twice.

I woke up in the morning late at 6:30am. I was supposed to report for my CASIC duty by 6am but i ended up waking up at 6.30. It was super super late. I quickly changed up my clothes and reported. Nobody knew about this outrageous action but Corporal Kim Seungjoon. He was at the CTOC. He saw the time and he was going a little bit angry. In this Korean society, people are not favourable of misbehavior done by juniors. They tend to be teachers or so. Anyways, what I have done was wrong so I admit. I got back to the bunk had a meal and just what I could remember are that I was blessed. I was blessed to be given lots of snacks from Corporal Yoon Sunghun who did care about me and was cared by Corporal Yoon Juhyung who I liked so much yet had some troubles way back. Jaemin was on the same birthday as I did so we ordered the Yutong Chicken and we had a feast. It was great having feast all together. It was great indeed. I guess it was this very day that when I hung up the phone with mom that I began growing this real thought that I do not care how much I am loved, it is how much I can share love that matters. It doesn't matter if he gets funny or loved more. We are family now and after all in years to come I would miss not being able to enjoy the moment. Yeah.. Hope I can keep this and grow this feeling.

Yeah so it was a very blessed day for me yesterday. And today, in the morning when it was time for us to run. I skipped. It wasn't great feeling. When I saw my senior Oh, I realized I had just committed something wrong that I knew it would be trouble but still head on. But morning exercise is the one thing that I hate so much. I hate running without having to stretch my muscles. It is so painful. Well, when I was just a private maybe I would have taken some different approach to this problem. Because I remember myself thinking of going for stretches early in the morning before the assembly would start, just to prepare myself for that run.

I guess, it is time to do what is right that I think it to be right.

And well, yeah I got down for exercise break today at 1:30 pm and it was indeed record breaking and very relaxing. Watched a movie called Mr. Nobody with Dongyeon and some others and it was indeed complicated. I went out to kick some ball and happened to end up being coached for full back positioning from Corporal Moon Hyunsik. It was great. I realized along the process my eyes were burning with passion again. I was listening to every single thing he was saying. I knew what he was telling me was going to make a step up for me. It was indeed useful.

Sergeant LeeSungwon had gone out for his last leave and now we know that our seniors will be going away and it is beginning to be time for the juniors to prepare the matches and all in a serious way. I had some responsibility to it.

Well, it wasn't pleasing to hear mom and dad quarreling through phone but yeah I don't feel like I am disappointed with them or what but more like I just hope there would be love in place in our family. Hope dad and mom would understand each other more in love. Hope there will be love with us. I thank Lord for this wonderful day and I hope to grow in you. Grow us and do care for all Jesus. Thank you and

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-463

Yeah. I am back here in the cyber digital room again here in this my familiar place. Walking through the guardhouse, walking into the command room, seeing the people I know and being warmly welcomed, I had no moments to feel sad about booking in.

As soon as I got up to the second floor, I saw Corporal Son who is a close friend of mine was on duty today. It is always glad to see him in here. I saluted to the officer in charge and had a little chat as I saw my bunk mates outside the admin room. We went back to the bunk together and I was warmly welcomed. It does not matter whether I was being warmly welcomed or missed. It matters that I care for them and it matters that I actually miss them and love them. There is one thing I realized as I was going through some quarrels and upsetting things these days. It is that they are no longer another person. They are part of me and they are part of my family. They are not someone to get apart from just because of petty quarrel or misunderstandings. I wasn't sure when I was on the train getting back to Daegu whether I could greet them with a happy smile and being the usual me but as soon as I saw them at the toilet outside the admin room, there was no silence in the air.

I was asked by my platoon leader to follow him to the guardhouse to collect the hand phone. As we were walking he told me he had some top news to share about. First was that there was Super Junior Ryu Wook in the first floor at military band bunk. It was a little shocking as he was super star but wasn't that famous as I didn't really know about him. Second was that we will be having our marching on 15 to 17 of February. This was real shocking news as Marching is one tiring one. Really.

Being pumped up with all these news, I was excited to see him as we were getting back but did not get to see him. There were people around him all the time man marking him, as he was super star.

Got up and changed my clothes and mom called me. Now that she knew about our cell number she started using it to call me. She would call me when she needs me or when she misses me. Today, it seems like she missed me a little bit earlier than I did as I wanted to call her after cleaning session. She heard from my bunk mate joking that I had to write some report and she asked me if it was real. Hung up the phone changed up and got pumped up with news like Jaemin became the barber and stuff. After cleaning time, had long chit chat time with the seniors about football and etc. Got back to the bunk and saw Jaemin cutting for brother Wooyoung and had a little chat with the bunk mates and received a gift from Ji hoon. It was a sweet thought of him for him to hink for me. I was sorry as I didn't give him anything for his birthday. It was heart warming really. Anyways that was about me getting back to the camp. Other than that was me watching this movie called Lion with sis this morning. I had to get up late and watch the later one. I never regret for spending my morning with that movie as this was really worth it. The movie was great that I can call it one of the greatest movie I had ever watched. It was one great movie. It was about a boy finding his true mom in India and this was truly touching when they showed the real footage of him getting back to India to see his mom. Sis and I went to the book shop and I told her to choose one book that she would want to read. As I was telling her that, I was thinking should I ask her to get a self-improvement related books but I did not. I wouldn't read books that I do not like either. It is the first step that she actually finds books interesting that she starts reading.

It is my bad that I woke up too late to see dad before he leaves. Did not even say bye before he left for work.

Hours passed really quick that it became 4pm where I had to leave for train. Mom sis and I were at Lotteria waiting for time to pass. When I was there with mom and as mom was asking quesitons, I wasn't really favourable of that moment as I thought she was asking too much questions. But why does life so complicated. When I am about to leave and as she began taking photos of me with sis and as I hugged her before leaving, I felt love. I felt love. For mom and my family. Sat down on the train and prayed to God, God, next time when I get back, I wish to talk more with my parents, I wish to share my thoughts and let them know about myself more and to learn more about my parents more. I wish to do that. I wish to have great communication with parents. I hope I can achieve that sometime. I will try and I am going to make it happen.

Another thing is as I was on the train, I realized there is no need for any envy or jealousy. I always knew this but I hoped that this time I could really get it changed. After all, I would miss the time that I was with this people and miss what I have missed. In years to come when I look back the memories I had here, I would miss myself being friendly and easy-going with everybody like how I did with Marcus.

Another day is going to come and I can't wait to see what will happen in days to come.

I love myself for having gone through this day and having learned each day.

Being a grown man is to being able to embrace more people in life. See the bigger picture and love the others. Love my family and Lord.

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-464

5th Feb means I am down to one day to book in. Unlike my first leave where I was nervous since the 3rd and the 4th day of my one week holiday, I don't feel nervous or pressed for anything. I am rather happy to have this moment. I am happy for things happening around me right now.

Got up in the morning with full stomach at about 9am. I rushed into the toilet and emptied. Was feeling much better that I went back to my room to download some you know something that I hadn't watched for about 180days since my enlistment. Also watched the series of Walking Dead season 4.

When I was ready, I woke my parents up and they prepared breakfast for me. Dad's Samyang Noodle is the best noodle I ever eat of all time. I didn't like this Samyang noodle he cooked for me when I used to come back for holidays to Korea. However, this taste has become so nostalgic that this became my favourite noodle. As Taeyeon was going through diets, only dad and I ate. We then moved to the Jjimjilbang. That was when the real deal began. I knew my parents would suspect if I do not turn up quick. I rushed in and like how I expected, my dad came to find me.

Had a long sleep at the grand hall and went in to the sauna once or twice. Before heading back, mom asked me to go for scrubbing the body session. It was my first time going through that and it clearly felt weird. It made me feel as if I am the actress of the 50 shades. Yeah it clearly was weird. Got out and saw dad supervising the traffic at the car park. Some people just parked their cars for their own sake that other people can't drive their cars out. We then headed for dinner around our house at the Spicy stir-fried chicken house. Had wonderful meal with Makggeoli and when dad was shaking the makggeoli it made me flash through the times when I was working for the Auntie Kim's. That was when I learned a lot of things. Those moments were part a huge part of my uni life.

As we were walking back to home, another memory flashed through. Those were the moments when I was in here for holidays from school and that moment when I was here for like 100days and 7months before heading back to Singapore. It is all differen feeling to actually go through the same streets when i am only given three days. All moments count from now. As we walked, I thought, I will definitely take my break before we switch our house next year so we can have our last walk through the street that we shared so much memories in here. Our family since we got back from overseas had gone through so many moments through here. Hana switched her name to Taeyeon and she became a high school student from just a primary school kid. I grew up to become an enlisted soldier from a secondary school student grumbling for more. Dad and mom got older and older and maybe for sure their health should have aged too. That is what I live for. I care about them and they are on my hands to cater. As I was walking through with all these thoughts, I realized that these moments do not come very often. Us walking this street together this moment do not come pretty often. That was when I began to slow down to walk together with them. Holding the plastic bags heading back home for another time of beer and junk food.

Got home and I went to the Hwaseo Pri school located just right in front my house to call Jaeyeon. I could have called him in my sis's room but I was too shy to do that. We talked as he was going to enlist tomorrow. It could have been a great joy for me to see him being enlisted but he was only going for 4 weeks and he will be serving at the Senior Care center as he was judged as Pes D. Even if he went in as normal soldier that wouldn't be so much of great news for me as that would mean I only lose another friend that I can keep in contact with.

Got back home drank beer with chips and I didn't want to go back to my room for laptop although there was nothing much going on. I knew these moments do not come very often. I love mom dad and sis, and so do they. I waited for dad and mom to head to sleep and here I am typing my day in sister's room, wearing a jacket.

I am heading back to camp tomorrow and I only hope that as I go back, I have forgiven all. Going back with empty mind and loving will. That's all I want. I thank God for this another wonderful day and I love Lord.

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-465

I hear the laughters, I hear the comments, I hear the quarrels and little tickles. This is home. This is where my root began from. This is where it all started.

After 36 days sine my first leave I am here at home again for my short 3days leave. Although this 3 days leave is really short, I am trying to make it as meaningful and useful as possible. It may not be as desirable in a way that I wasn't of a perfect mood from my bunk with the mates but yeah I am thankful to Lord for this day I am given as he gave me a break. He gave me a break to gain back my power to love the others.

Getting back home the only thought I had on the train was that I wanted to share a little joy to my parents. I wanted to spread some positive vibes to my family. I left my platoon late as my leave card wasn't on the spot. They printed new and I left reached Suwon at 11am. My mom was waiting for me and there was this thought in me that I should behave normal like how I behave to others too. I cannot leave this baby me to my parents for all my life. Thought this was a good opportunity. That night when I was upset at the admin room made me to trigger a change in my behavior. It wasn't working so great. It rather seemed like I wasn't on a good mood to my mom who was driving me to the temple. I was trying to think in all positive ways. After all, I had nothing much to do when I was at home. And greeting my dad's mom, in a way I respect my mom for respecting my dad's mom after all things that she went through.

However though, along the way, there were so many thoughts about how slow she was driving, parking and the matter of fact that we are at the temple. There were so many thoughts but I managed to control them down. I managed to get them down. For I knew that this was right.

As we were heading back home, we were really starving. I didn't have breakfast. Mom asked me several questions about what to eat and she asked me if i would want to go to Asheley Restuarant nearby. It was located at the Dongtan Metropolis. At first I said no in thought that I did not want to have any Western. However, after some thoughts I told my mom that I would want to eat at the Asheley. As we got there, my mom saw the heavy traffic and realized even if we get in, we will have to get queue number and etc. That was when I grumbled to mom that we should head back home. We left my army clothes at the laundry shop and had our lunch at the Gamjatang soup restaurant.

As we got back home, as I was using my laptop, I realized that Dongtan Metropolis was on the number one search list at Naver. I was just there man.. I knew something had happened when I saw it was number one. But I just hoped that it wasn't something to do with an accident. When I clicked and it loaded, I saw news that there was fire accident and 4 people had died from it. I was so terrified that I could have been in the accident too. I told mom about it and she was the one who was more surprised about this fact. She called my sis her friend dad talked about it.

I was playing FO3 and when late afternoon arrived, dad came back home. As dad came home, I stopped playing and we gathered at the living room. I was pretty awkward and mom was worried about my attitude that she was worried what if I was going through all those hardships that some of the soldiers located in the further side are going through such as bullying. She asked me tons of times if I had trouble with my bunk mates or my seniors. Everytime she ask me it makes me feel a little bit annoyed. It is because you know.. I may not feel it that way but when mom knows about what all had happened she might be worried or think in a wrong way. It could also be because I was lying in a way. But I don't think it is the best solution to tell mom about it. After all it is not bullying. It is me finding out how I am going to co-exist with people, not just Koreans but people. On top of that, I am not being bullied or being left out but more like being loved and cared for. It is unfair to let mom know about what is going on as she will only be worried after reading all those tear-triggering stories.

At night, I learned from my previous leave that if I leave the living room, they no loner continue the meal but just go for sleep. So I stayed. I stayed even though we had nothing to talk about. I stayed and see what will happen. We played Go-Stop and I was the winner after all. I learned the way to play and I emerged to be the winner. I earned \20000 and I bought my family a chicken. Walking outside to the shop with dad, it was such a wonderful experience. Listening to him father to son it was great. That was when I realized how I should be spending the rest of my leave. I want to know more about my family. Getting back home and drinking the Alcohol that I bought from the army, sis was going crazy with her song.

It was such a great day. I wish to spend such a lovely day with my family too tomorrow. I am glad that I am given this day for a break. I am ready to love them again. I will be stronger when I am back. I love God for this day and

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-466

Hey hey hey.. yeah what a day.

Everytime I be typing out this diary of my own, I know my mood. I know my day. I know how it went and how it has been.

You see, when there are days that things seem all so beautiful and wonderful those are the days that I would be lazy to type a diary for I am not in so much need for reflection. However, there are also times when I would just can't leave this cyber lounge without writing out this diary because of the day I had. The kind of day I had. And today.. is maybe one of those days.

One positive thing! Is that today, I am not here being upset due to some senior issues or complicated matter like that. I've learned to deal with my senior on my own and I've get used to the way I found out. Those are working and I am learning to co-exist. I am learning to live together with respect. That is one super great thing in here. I respect, I gain the respect either. Secondly, I am being loved by all. It is just that today when I got back, it was just that when all everybody were pointing at me and like laughing and stuff it just made me feel like I am being overly criticized by everybody. I didn't like how Daeeun would point at the things I do and say they are dirty. I was like kind of ashamed of those. It also made me feel like as if I am doing some things that I make my bunk mates disgusted. That was why I wasn't at a very good mood at first when he entered. Then, it was when they were looking at the prints I made from work that they start pointing out stuff about things and the mistakes and Daeeun asking me to go and print them again and saying things like he would go print it himself as if this is unacceptable. That was quite ashameful. But you see, you've decided to take it on your own. Like not talking it out to him but just taking it on my own. Because I do know that all those came out in love and I wasn't ready to take them. After all, they meant no harm. But I am in a riddle here. I am not sure if I should always take it or should I actually go approach him and say stuff that I do not like about him. I know things would be complicated or I don't know. If I just take in to myself all the time it may not be so good even for myself. If I go and talk it out to him I may be seen like someone who would tell people about what I don't like and being picky. I didn't want to be a picky person who will be hard to actually get along with.

Well, what if I say things I want to say right at the point when he does things. Yeah what if I do that. Well it could be pretty awkward for me to say that because he wouldn't take them seriously. I mean after all is it really something to be mad about or be angry about. Well, it could be something to be ashamed of but you see when things happen, if you don't think that it is reasonable you go say it. If they are reasonable then why not I have a laugh about it and go learn from it. Things are positive in those ways.

Yeah. Well, you know, it could be hard for me going back there and acting normal again but they are due to me thinking how they would be thinking about me. Those do not matter at all really. I've been the one who are ready to accept and it truly does not matter.

My day today will never come again. 2017's February third will never be back again. I am not letting it go. My day isn't over yet. I don't have to try so much. I've only got to be positive and get along and enjoy. That's all I need. I love them and they love me. I can't lose things just like that because of one silly moment. Those are all just one smiley moment in big picture that i see in years time.

I love myself and thank myself for this beautiful lesson-learned day

I love God for this day too.

I am not giving up this day. I love them and I love me.

Amen.

Dawns in Daegu - D-467

It is the D-467 here in Daegu and after this night, I am only down to a day before me taking leave sweet back home.

For the past two days were well a little bit of struggle within me through times and well I had some improvements in myself too, like trying to love people. There indeed were.

I am happy that right now things are good. I am in good mood, I'm doing good with friends here and they love me. That is one great thing. However, it will be much better if I start accepting people around me and see the real and love them. That would be really awesome experience.

I am taking my leave on Saturday. Hopefully this imminent leave card would be out so I can leave on Saturday. I want to go back for a little while and be a joy to my family. Little joy would be fine too. Leave in great mood with great mind and share the great minds with mom too.

I am thankful for today I was given and will look forward to the very trying and learning day.

Thank Lord and

Amen.