Wow. Been more than 100days since my last post in here.
Let me see 258 days hmm exactly 4months ago so it must be August when I had great Gangneung journey with Jun.
Well, back then I was only just promoted to Specialist so I could say I was super far off from my discharge date. Yet, I still thought being a specialist means being the top notch of the company. How petty.
Time really flew and today I am posting the last(most prolly) diary of 2017.
It is due to a specific event that could be highlight or turning-point of my life. On 26th December 2017, our family moved to a 3-room apartment flat after 7 years of living under monthly rental payments. It was a big jump. Those seven years in there, were joy yet sorrow. All of my shameful teenage memories and my family's memories lie in there. I remember studying Megastudy books that mom would force me to during summer breaks when I return to Korea for a month and practice football at Hwaseo primary school, which was just next to our house. I remember going through an outrageous time in 2012, when I was back here to prepare for my 2nd O-level exam. There were timeless fights and those were really the dark times. Yet, after all, this 7 years of memory in hwaseo-dong is a smile. It began with disappointment and ended with a scent of home.
Walking up to Sunkyung and Joongang library, taking direct buses to Gangnam/ Suwon and to Suwon worldcup stadium... this place would always remain in my heart.
So, here comes our Christmas gift. On 25th December 2017, just a day before our move, our family had a blessed meal time together at dad's favorite restaurant. We talked on and on unlike usual days and we were coming to some solutions from each others too. It sure was a ordinary family. That's what mattered.
And well today, 27th Dec, I plucked up the courage to ask mom and dad about me staying a year in Korea to widen my experience in football and like how mom always used to respond, the answer was no. Well, I am proud of myself that I accepted her opinion without grumbling. I accepted the fact that now, I can't only fight for my right anymore. It's time to start thinking as a family and show what's sacrifice. I am proud I could make those decisions that bring peace and bring a more hardworking me.
28th December, I would be in E.Daegu heading back to camp, probably feeling a little down. But well on the bright side there are not much days left before this dischargement. Look at that D-Day!!! I've only left 138 days! What a big jump from 500 days! This is truly amazing. The next 137 days be joyful, loyal, helping, kind, merciful, forgiving and loving.
Amen.
Thursday, December 28, 2017
Thursday, August 31, 2017
Dawns in Daegu - D-257
Been long!
I am here at this comfy room of my sister where I spent those holidays whenever I was serving in the army, being an insecure secondary school student and even now.
the last time I wrote a story was month ago. 315 days and now 257 going to head to break the 250 line. and the guilt is in me when I am writing this diary as I could feel that I have trouble typing in fluent English right now.
Although my last post was 7th of July, I only remember myself to be writing a post after the U-20 Worldcup ended. Just to compare what has changed from then to now, I've done more than 50% of my service, I've got to know and got closer to some of my junior soldiers, learned lifelong lessons like to understand another person's feelings(maybe not), not worrying too much, and trying to lead things to something positive.
And yeah, I got awkward with that one brother I was so close to. I am not overly sad about it but yet I was missing those times with him where I would have that ultimate fun in the bunk. As times pass, and as my thought that the way we got weird was very weird on his side, and seeing him getting along very well with other mates and I'm the only one he tried to avoid, I only grew mad at times. However, I reached the stage where I do not madly wish to get closer to him like last time as I began to accept the reality but will just see how things flow and do not go against the gravity of time.
And today I am here waiting for time to pass, so I could meet my bunk buddies for this big event, Korea vs Iran Worldcup qualifier R9. I am kind of the host for this outing as i wanted my mates to see with their eyes and enjoy what football is and also to support the dangered Korean team as a team! This outing could have got very unwilling for me if my vibe of sadness due to sandeul had continued to overwhelm me but i overcame it through positivity. Positivity is always the key.
Will be seeing Jun tmr morning for Gangeung trip and I know any trip with him would be awesome. Will enjoy what I have today and love the world.
I am here at this comfy room of my sister where I spent those holidays whenever I was serving in the army, being an insecure secondary school student and even now.
the last time I wrote a story was month ago. 315 days and now 257 going to head to break the 250 line. and the guilt is in me when I am writing this diary as I could feel that I have trouble typing in fluent English right now.
Although my last post was 7th of July, I only remember myself to be writing a post after the U-20 Worldcup ended. Just to compare what has changed from then to now, I've done more than 50% of my service, I've got to know and got closer to some of my junior soldiers, learned lifelong lessons like to understand another person's feelings(maybe not), not worrying too much, and trying to lead things to something positive.
And yeah, I got awkward with that one brother I was so close to. I am not overly sad about it but yet I was missing those times with him where I would have that ultimate fun in the bunk. As times pass, and as my thought that the way we got weird was very weird on his side, and seeing him getting along very well with other mates and I'm the only one he tried to avoid, I only grew mad at times. However, I reached the stage where I do not madly wish to get closer to him like last time as I began to accept the reality but will just see how things flow and do not go against the gravity of time.
And today I am here waiting for time to pass, so I could meet my bunk buddies for this big event, Korea vs Iran Worldcup qualifier R9. I am kind of the host for this outing as i wanted my mates to see with their eyes and enjoy what football is and also to support the dangered Korean team as a team! This outing could have got very unwilling for me if my vibe of sadness due to sandeul had continued to overwhelm me but i overcame it through positivity. Positivity is always the key.
Will be seeing Jun tmr morning for Gangeung trip and I know any trip with him would be awesome. Will enjoy what I have today and love the world.
Wednesday, July 5, 2017
Dawns in Daegu - D-314
Many things happened since my last post in this diary.
Well, one thing I realize is that I should be writing and posting in here more often. So there are things to look back after this long journey and also I could look back at myself for what I was today and reflect.
Well, I am a corporal now. I've got one more line on my badge. Three lines.
And yeah that also means that I've broke that 50% liner. I have done more days than the days I am left to do.
D-314 means I've done 323days.
Checking my ord days on naver, realized the last time when I tried to check in here beside jihoon was at my pfc days where I was happy to have completed 20% of it. I was glad that I've done 1/5 of the whole journey. Taking it as compared to my runs in my secondary school years where I used to run the whole Condominium for 10 rounds. I had completed the 2nd round back then.
Yeah, so time have truely passed some bit. Look at me. A private who would sit down in the payphone box crying out my prayer to lord, a private who sits down in a cubicle reading the words of a book that would comfort me down. A pfc who would have some bit issues with mates here and there at times and now I can't say all the problems I used to have in my previous days are gone but yet there are surely improvements in place.
Being a pfc on the very day before December, I thought to myself that being a pfc means I need to take in more responsibility and also have bigger heart to take in other people. That's the thought and objective I had in mind when I turned to be a pfc. Being a corporal, I want to be a person who could speak for the truth. I wanna be considerate, be nice to people, cut the jealousy and love 'em all and I want to say the truth. Talk the things that I could as a corporal. There would be people who couldn't dare to speak for they feel they are weak. It's time that as an old member of this group, that I got to say things that I feel is right to fight for the righteousness. Beinga corporal, also means that I got to be more humble and considerate for the others. Corporal is the last stage before turning to be a sergeant who would have very less seniors above. There could be thoughts rising up in me when I was in the midst stage of pfc to feel that I am aware of things in here and feel confident, lazy and relaxed. That's not right. Staying humble all the time is the key to every relationship.
I see things that are not seemingly right from ppl around me and is time that I make it right by performing it so myself.
Well, one thing I realize is that I should be writing and posting in here more often. So there are things to look back after this long journey and also I could look back at myself for what I was today and reflect.
Well, I am a corporal now. I've got one more line on my badge. Three lines.
And yeah that also means that I've broke that 50% liner. I have done more days than the days I am left to do.
D-314 means I've done 323days.
Checking my ord days on naver, realized the last time when I tried to check in here beside jihoon was at my pfc days where I was happy to have completed 20% of it. I was glad that I've done 1/5 of the whole journey. Taking it as compared to my runs in my secondary school years where I used to run the whole Condominium for 10 rounds. I had completed the 2nd round back then.
Yeah, so time have truely passed some bit. Look at me. A private who would sit down in the payphone box crying out my prayer to lord, a private who sits down in a cubicle reading the words of a book that would comfort me down. A pfc who would have some bit issues with mates here and there at times and now I can't say all the problems I used to have in my previous days are gone but yet there are surely improvements in place.
Being a pfc on the very day before December, I thought to myself that being a pfc means I need to take in more responsibility and also have bigger heart to take in other people. That's the thought and objective I had in mind when I turned to be a pfc. Being a corporal, I want to be a person who could speak for the truth. I wanna be considerate, be nice to people, cut the jealousy and love 'em all and I want to say the truth. Talk the things that I could as a corporal. There would be people who couldn't dare to speak for they feel they are weak. It's time that as an old member of this group, that I got to say things that I feel is right to fight for the righteousness. Beinga corporal, also means that I got to be more humble and considerate for the others. Corporal is the last stage before turning to be a sergeant who would have very less seniors above. There could be thoughts rising up in me when I was in the midst stage of pfc to feel that I am aware of things in here and feel confident, lazy and relaxed. That's not right. Staying humble all the time is the key to every relationship.
I see things that are not seemingly right from ppl around me and is time that I make it right by performing it so myself.
Sunday, June 11, 2017
Dawns in Daegu - D-338
So has the U-20 FIFA Worldcup come to an end. This was what i was looking forward to even before the enlistment. The first thought that came to me when I was confirmed of my enlistment was that I will be able to witness the live scenes of U-20 World Cup that is to take place in my home country. As there were much expectations for this huge tournament, the emptiness after the end of it is even bigger.
I spent 20 days of my holidays for this wonderful tournament. I watched 17 games in total out of 52 games being played. So I watched 1/3 of the games. This was such a wonderful experience for me. Being on the spot, made me to widen my horizons toward football. How the matches are being played, where the VIPs are and etc. I managed to take a lot of selfies with the celebrities like my dream super star Lee Youngpyo, Cha Duri, Heo Jungmoo, Jurgen Klinsman, his daughter and son, some of the USA stars and the fans of participating countries. While watching matches, I had such a wonderful time recording down and writing down my thoughts on it to think and learn and open my sights to football. Watching various matches helped me being able to spot out the strategy, formation and team tactics. Pre-studying which players were the key man and as the tourney proceeded, I began to be familiar with players in teams. Especially, team England was the team that I watched the most game by 4 games, helping me to be so familiar with the team and as an award of that, I even got a jersey from the coach. That was one wonderful memory.
Going town to town was wonderful too. I always wanted to visit various stadiums in different cities and thanks to the hosting cities, I managed to visit Jeonju, Daejeon, Cheonan and Incheon stadium for the first time. Amongst all, Jeonju Worldcup stadium was the most memorable and remembered as happy memories. When there were several games held in a day I will choose to go to Jeonju with no doubt. Jeonju was that special to me. The first time I dropped there for Guinea vs Korea with Jun, we realized the girls there were so friendly to visitors. That was amazing. Food were amazing and there were the atmosphere of festival in there. The sights of hundreds of people wearing hanbok and doing the traditional dance at the hall was such a memory for me. Great win against Guinea to start off the first round of this tournament for Korea Republic. I visited there again when I dropped to watch England vs Costa Rica. I could have gone to watch other matches but I knew it could be last time me witnessing the Costa Rican team so I did not hesitate to choose to go to Jeonju and I was right for sure. When I took this bus 101 at Girin park, I saw this lady sitting alone wearing her FIFA card and I did not hesitate to ask whether she was going to the worldcup stadium. We talked about football and we became friends. It was amazing that I managed to see her again when I visited jeonju the third time in the bus. How amazing it is. She acknowledged her destiny and shared me her namecard. She was such a friendly person to get me around in Jeonju. She seemed like she was goal-minded and I am sure she will be successful as a football fan. Having food in jeonju was so amazing that they were nice and the gamjatang restaurant in front of the lan shop was amazing. The auntie gave me more rice to eat and she meant it.
Other stadiums were amazing too but well yeah that Cheonan was a little hard to get and the stadium's atmosphere wasn't that favorable and Daejeon stadium do not leave much memories to me but it just wasn't a memorable memory for me. Incheon was amazing though. That closeness between the pitch and the stand made people take photos with the players.
So this memory of me, searching the key players before heading to matches, getting down to the stadium an hour before to check out the events going around outside the stadium, getting the ticket pretending to be a middle school student, sitting down near the VIP seats just to take photos with the celebrities and football people.
When I enter the stadium, the music will be being played, Work hard Play Hard these songs and the other pop songs while the players will come out and warm up. When it's 34minutes before the kick-off the screen will show highlights of 2015 New Zealand U-20 worldcup and then the silence fills the stadium and the announcer will welcome the people to the stadium for this match and when it is just 30 minutes before kick off they will announce the starting XI. Highlights of the current worldcup and the M/V for this U-20 which is 'Trigger the Fever' by NCT Dream will be played and when its 11 minutes before kick-off, this serious song will be played and the players will start to enter. People will start to settle down and clap for the players. At half-time people will go around to get food and I will be busy trying to get photos with the VIPs. Those were amazing memories I had. It indeed widened my horizons to see football. This report that I am working on, will surely be an instrument to make me grow further. I've seen people who were sharing same dreams as me and how hard-working they had been. it's time for me to set my goals again look up and run towards it.
The end of this world cup would leave a little blankness in me but surely, there would be things to look out for and the thought of me having to learn so much and experience so much that is clearly just what I had needed. This 20 days of long holidays wasn't as how I wanted as u know I was weird with family, i just didn't wanna get involved although I think I might not had a choice and I was a little obsessed with trying to talk to girls and stuff but yeah if those were experiences i guess that's fine and maybe I could learn from it too. And clearly I made a lesson that things come and go.
U-20 worldcup has clearly 'Triggered the Fever' for me.
I did get a good rest in here enjoying my moments its time to get back and do my best to serve my country.
Trigger the Fever.
I spent 20 days of my holidays for this wonderful tournament. I watched 17 games in total out of 52 games being played. So I watched 1/3 of the games. This was such a wonderful experience for me. Being on the spot, made me to widen my horizons toward football. How the matches are being played, where the VIPs are and etc. I managed to take a lot of selfies with the celebrities like my dream super star Lee Youngpyo, Cha Duri, Heo Jungmoo, Jurgen Klinsman, his daughter and son, some of the USA stars and the fans of participating countries. While watching matches, I had such a wonderful time recording down and writing down my thoughts on it to think and learn and open my sights to football. Watching various matches helped me being able to spot out the strategy, formation and team tactics. Pre-studying which players were the key man and as the tourney proceeded, I began to be familiar with players in teams. Especially, team England was the team that I watched the most game by 4 games, helping me to be so familiar with the team and as an award of that, I even got a jersey from the coach. That was one wonderful memory.
Going town to town was wonderful too. I always wanted to visit various stadiums in different cities and thanks to the hosting cities, I managed to visit Jeonju, Daejeon, Cheonan and Incheon stadium for the first time. Amongst all, Jeonju Worldcup stadium was the most memorable and remembered as happy memories. When there were several games held in a day I will choose to go to Jeonju with no doubt. Jeonju was that special to me. The first time I dropped there for Guinea vs Korea with Jun, we realized the girls there were so friendly to visitors. That was amazing. Food were amazing and there were the atmosphere of festival in there. The sights of hundreds of people wearing hanbok and doing the traditional dance at the hall was such a memory for me. Great win against Guinea to start off the first round of this tournament for Korea Republic. I visited there again when I dropped to watch England vs Costa Rica. I could have gone to watch other matches but I knew it could be last time me witnessing the Costa Rican team so I did not hesitate to choose to go to Jeonju and I was right for sure. When I took this bus 101 at Girin park, I saw this lady sitting alone wearing her FIFA card and I did not hesitate to ask whether she was going to the worldcup stadium. We talked about football and we became friends. It was amazing that I managed to see her again when I visited jeonju the third time in the bus. How amazing it is. She acknowledged her destiny and shared me her namecard. She was such a friendly person to get me around in Jeonju. She seemed like she was goal-minded and I am sure she will be successful as a football fan. Having food in jeonju was so amazing that they were nice and the gamjatang restaurant in front of the lan shop was amazing. The auntie gave me more rice to eat and she meant it.
Other stadiums were amazing too but well yeah that Cheonan was a little hard to get and the stadium's atmosphere wasn't that favorable and Daejeon stadium do not leave much memories to me but it just wasn't a memorable memory for me. Incheon was amazing though. That closeness between the pitch and the stand made people take photos with the players.
So this memory of me, searching the key players before heading to matches, getting down to the stadium an hour before to check out the events going around outside the stadium, getting the ticket pretending to be a middle school student, sitting down near the VIP seats just to take photos with the celebrities and football people.
When I enter the stadium, the music will be being played, Work hard Play Hard these songs and the other pop songs while the players will come out and warm up. When it's 34minutes before the kick-off the screen will show highlights of 2015 New Zealand U-20 worldcup and then the silence fills the stadium and the announcer will welcome the people to the stadium for this match and when it is just 30 minutes before kick off they will announce the starting XI. Highlights of the current worldcup and the M/V for this U-20 which is 'Trigger the Fever' by NCT Dream will be played and when its 11 minutes before kick-off, this serious song will be played and the players will start to enter. People will start to settle down and clap for the players. At half-time people will go around to get food and I will be busy trying to get photos with the VIPs. Those were amazing memories I had. It indeed widened my horizons to see football. This report that I am working on, will surely be an instrument to make me grow further. I've seen people who were sharing same dreams as me and how hard-working they had been. it's time for me to set my goals again look up and run towards it.
The end of this world cup would leave a little blankness in me but surely, there would be things to look out for and the thought of me having to learn so much and experience so much that is clearly just what I had needed. This 20 days of long holidays wasn't as how I wanted as u know I was weird with family, i just didn't wanna get involved although I think I might not had a choice and I was a little obsessed with trying to talk to girls and stuff but yeah if those were experiences i guess that's fine and maybe I could learn from it too. And clearly I made a lesson that things come and go.
U-20 worldcup has clearly 'Triggered the Fever' for me.
I did get a good rest in here enjoying my moments its time to get back and do my best to serve my country.
Trigger the Fever.
Friday, May 26, 2017
Dawns in Daegu - D-354
It's been some time since I last wrote in this diary.
Yes, things have changed a lot.
I mean well the time I guess surely changed.
The last time when I was jotting down in here it was D-378 and now 24 days have passed, almost a month and during this time, I broke that D-365, the one year wall.
Well, I was counting for that very 15th of May this year, as this would mark my D-1year anniversary. Things will be much different in Next year's 15th May when it marks the end of my service.
Past few days back in camp, things had been a little confusing for me. Like you know, I sit down in my bunk, it's not like I get left out or feel bad in camp but it was about all the questions that brother Sandeul would throw, tantrums Dae eun will throw at times and you know me hating Jaemin sometimes for his weird behaviors. Surprisingly, I had no troubles with Kwanghyun. I mean, its really God's blessings that he allowed me to love him again. I hope that this love will be a dove to start loving all creatures.
So I needed a break. Realizing myself acting weird or somewhat arrogant made me realize I needed to reflect myself and look through again. It's like there is this vacuum state of being in me. This comes when I maybe have no true loyalty. I am not loyal to my mom I guess. After that very incident on my last holiday, I just don't feel perfectly comfortable or love her as much.
Well, I do know there is a key in forgiving but I am grown up and it is no longer her duty to make me better or console me.
After my first leave(out of the big 4 U-20 vacations) to Jeonju, as I returned back there was this feeling that why do I have to stay here when I am leaving so soon and for so long. It does make people not loyal to what I was up to and a little senseless.
So this break was quite I can say needed. I needed some fresh air, loneliness and some good time of football which I would always love to be related.
However, this holiday may seem like it's going a little off. The main purpose of this holiday was to get some fresh air watch football and relieve myself but you see, downloading tinder to get girls to chat with and walking around seeing girls and hoping to get hooked and etc. those are not very desirable. You see, we've been through this moments back in Singapore where all I would do is to tinder and play FIFA at home. Those were a little off. What if I could have done something more meaningful back then. What if I look back myself 10 years down the road and see and feel that what if I could have done this during the U-20 worldcup period in Korea where it only happens once in lifetime.
Well so here is my point in here. I hope I do make full use of this holiday. Get great enjoyment and be relieved too. I think is pretty normal that I want to find girls but hope it just doesn't affect the other things that I want to do and will regret not doing.
Thanks for living up this wonderful day
Enjoy and have an awesome day today!
Thank God.
Amen.
Yes, things have changed a lot.
I mean well the time I guess surely changed.
The last time when I was jotting down in here it was D-378 and now 24 days have passed, almost a month and during this time, I broke that D-365, the one year wall.
Well, I was counting for that very 15th of May this year, as this would mark my D-1year anniversary. Things will be much different in Next year's 15th May when it marks the end of my service.
Past few days back in camp, things had been a little confusing for me. Like you know, I sit down in my bunk, it's not like I get left out or feel bad in camp but it was about all the questions that brother Sandeul would throw, tantrums Dae eun will throw at times and you know me hating Jaemin sometimes for his weird behaviors. Surprisingly, I had no troubles with Kwanghyun. I mean, its really God's blessings that he allowed me to love him again. I hope that this love will be a dove to start loving all creatures.
So I needed a break. Realizing myself acting weird or somewhat arrogant made me realize I needed to reflect myself and look through again. It's like there is this vacuum state of being in me. This comes when I maybe have no true loyalty. I am not loyal to my mom I guess. After that very incident on my last holiday, I just don't feel perfectly comfortable or love her as much.
Well, I do know there is a key in forgiving but I am grown up and it is no longer her duty to make me better or console me.
After my first leave(out of the big 4 U-20 vacations) to Jeonju, as I returned back there was this feeling that why do I have to stay here when I am leaving so soon and for so long. It does make people not loyal to what I was up to and a little senseless.
So this break was quite I can say needed. I needed some fresh air, loneliness and some good time of football which I would always love to be related.
However, this holiday may seem like it's going a little off. The main purpose of this holiday was to get some fresh air watch football and relieve myself but you see, downloading tinder to get girls to chat with and walking around seeing girls and hoping to get hooked and etc. those are not very desirable. You see, we've been through this moments back in Singapore where all I would do is to tinder and play FIFA at home. Those were a little off. What if I could have done something more meaningful back then. What if I look back myself 10 years down the road and see and feel that what if I could have done this during the U-20 worldcup period in Korea where it only happens once in lifetime.
Well so here is my point in here. I hope I do make full use of this holiday. Get great enjoyment and be relieved too. I think is pretty normal that I want to find girls but hope it just doesn't affect the other things that I want to do and will regret not doing.
Thanks for living up this wonderful day
Enjoy and have an awesome day today!
Thank God.
Amen.
Tuesday, May 2, 2017
Dawns in Daegu - D-378
So here is another spot that I find is the most comfortable place ever in my Korean house. I am now down to like two hours before my train to E. Daegu and I am summing up this 4 days holiday I was given.
Yeah, this clearly was an unexpected holiday. I mean, I knew I would be able to spend a day at home for a 2days 1night thing but didn't know my father would go out and dance with my platoon leader to help me get a 4days and 3night holidays. I was so lucky to get this reward. I mean, although I didn't know what to do or could have felt that this 4days could be a waste since it would be included in the 18 days of rewarding holidays given, it was indeed somewhat worthy.
Other than anything, it was the time that made me feel the value of family. Seeing dad and mom smile and seeing them having been improved so much in their relationship do make me feel warm too. They've become so much closer than any other time. Dad going in front to do it for me and etc. and me preparing for my parents a song by Kim Gunmo since mom loves that song, although i didn't get to present up front, it was clearly a great experience trying to do something for mom and dad. I mean, I have no fear. I do what I do so I wouldn't regret. I tried it so I am going to do what I could do in this limited time of my and my parents' lives.
As we got home, we went to this Dak Galbi house as dad loved it and had a meal and dad and mom seemed so happy. Got home using my laptop and tried to find out what I would do the next 3 days. I tried to watch a lot of movies and spend time with family and Jun too.
Although, I felt that the only time I could possibly spend time with family was weekends, so I cancelled appointments with Jun, it was worth while. We went out to the temple to pray and saw our new house. It was never a waste of time. Going to temple during my leave is so worthy now. I got to learn those traditions regardless of my own religion to respect my parents' religion.
After game, we got to E-mart that my family used to visit when we were all still in Korea. It was memories indeed. We looked around checking out and seeing the strcuture of the building, I mean yes it was so much different yet I could see some of the places that had the little me in there.
Dad and I rushed to the Suwon Sports Complex to watch the K-league challenge match against Daejeon. It was another blessing for me to be able to catch this game as I couldn't have watched this game if I didn't get my holidays. It was my first time watching a K-league challenge and Suwon FC's match. Suwon FC used to attract me since long ago for they were doing well in the national league and they succeeded in the Challenge and Classic with their successful manager Cho Duk Je.
Waiting outside the stadium, there was a kick ball and getting the entrance tickets to the U-20 world cup and I took it for my parents to watch.
Then, I went in to the stadium. It was beautiful. The goal net was in Suwon FC's traditional color blue and red. And the supporters had their own seatings on the track as the supporters seat was pretty far away.
What made me love this team was that the atmosphere was like family. No vulgar or no fightings in here but very peaceful. There were disabled kids in front me and dad and they were screaming for Suwon FC. Also, at the entrance, the person checking the ticket and giving out the flyers seemed like mom and her son. The whole team was like ran by family. It made me feel like a family team.
The game was wonderful, we won 3-1 and all goals were fantastic.
I got to watch my favorable player Baik Sung Dong's play too.
On a third day, I spent my time at home enjoying and had a walk to Sunkyung Library that had the most of my memories in Korea. Walking and seeing the scenery and sitting down at the bench in the library, it was so beautiful. It was such a beauty. Seeing the flowers in green and red and resting myself and remembering all those moments that had gone through me during those hard times. It was wonderful. I realized, my memories in Korea is this place.
Getting in to the libray, I checked out some of the places and left to eat at my favourite bunsik place called Elephant bunsik but only to realize that it was gone. It wasn' there anymore. It was pretty sad but i just decided to have my meal right beside and walked to get a cab to E. Suwon CGV. I watched two movies Founder and Dancer. Dancer was super boring as it was a documentary movie. I wondered why there were so many people watching this movie.
Then, I rode on my dad's car to the restaurant to meet my uncles and auntie. It was a special meeting. I mean i never know when I could see them again. As the meeting ended and when first auntie grabbed my hand to bid farewell, I saw her wrinkles on her face and yes, it hit me hard that she was old. We all were getting old. Even my dad mom sis we all growing up. We are no longer 40s, 50s or our age like before. I never know when would be my last.
Got home and mom was a little furious as usual that I didn't book my ticket to E. Daegu. She would get furious as usual when things don't work out as she planned but yeah you know, I tried to calm myself trying to think positive so that there could be an improvement in me. But yeah, when she was like crossing the line that I felt, I got mad too that I could have said anything I would want to curse. Well, I don't know but after all we are family and we all do make mistakes. What I learned in army is that we all are different and we all got to learn to live together with each other. I guess I could apply that in here.
Forgive and move on.
Well yeah, and now it's 2pm and I am down to like an hour and a half before my train.
I thank God for this wonderful 4 days of leave and want to share my blessings to the surroundings.
Thank God for this day.
Amen.
Yeah, this clearly was an unexpected holiday. I mean, I knew I would be able to spend a day at home for a 2days 1night thing but didn't know my father would go out and dance with my platoon leader to help me get a 4days and 3night holidays. I was so lucky to get this reward. I mean, although I didn't know what to do or could have felt that this 4days could be a waste since it would be included in the 18 days of rewarding holidays given, it was indeed somewhat worthy.
Other than anything, it was the time that made me feel the value of family. Seeing dad and mom smile and seeing them having been improved so much in their relationship do make me feel warm too. They've become so much closer than any other time. Dad going in front to do it for me and etc. and me preparing for my parents a song by Kim Gunmo since mom loves that song, although i didn't get to present up front, it was clearly a great experience trying to do something for mom and dad. I mean, I have no fear. I do what I do so I wouldn't regret. I tried it so I am going to do what I could do in this limited time of my and my parents' lives.
As we got home, we went to this Dak Galbi house as dad loved it and had a meal and dad and mom seemed so happy. Got home using my laptop and tried to find out what I would do the next 3 days. I tried to watch a lot of movies and spend time with family and Jun too.
Although, I felt that the only time I could possibly spend time with family was weekends, so I cancelled appointments with Jun, it was worth while. We went out to the temple to pray and saw our new house. It was never a waste of time. Going to temple during my leave is so worthy now. I got to learn those traditions regardless of my own religion to respect my parents' religion.
After game, we got to E-mart that my family used to visit when we were all still in Korea. It was memories indeed. We looked around checking out and seeing the strcuture of the building, I mean yes it was so much different yet I could see some of the places that had the little me in there.
Dad and I rushed to the Suwon Sports Complex to watch the K-league challenge match against Daejeon. It was another blessing for me to be able to catch this game as I couldn't have watched this game if I didn't get my holidays. It was my first time watching a K-league challenge and Suwon FC's match. Suwon FC used to attract me since long ago for they were doing well in the national league and they succeeded in the Challenge and Classic with their successful manager Cho Duk Je.
Waiting outside the stadium, there was a kick ball and getting the entrance tickets to the U-20 world cup and I took it for my parents to watch.
Then, I went in to the stadium. It was beautiful. The goal net was in Suwon FC's traditional color blue and red. And the supporters had their own seatings on the track as the supporters seat was pretty far away.
What made me love this team was that the atmosphere was like family. No vulgar or no fightings in here but very peaceful. There were disabled kids in front me and dad and they were screaming for Suwon FC. Also, at the entrance, the person checking the ticket and giving out the flyers seemed like mom and her son. The whole team was like ran by family. It made me feel like a family team.
The game was wonderful, we won 3-1 and all goals were fantastic.
I got to watch my favorable player Baik Sung Dong's play too.
On a third day, I spent my time at home enjoying and had a walk to Sunkyung Library that had the most of my memories in Korea. Walking and seeing the scenery and sitting down at the bench in the library, it was so beautiful. It was such a beauty. Seeing the flowers in green and red and resting myself and remembering all those moments that had gone through me during those hard times. It was wonderful. I realized, my memories in Korea is this place.
Getting in to the libray, I checked out some of the places and left to eat at my favourite bunsik place called Elephant bunsik but only to realize that it was gone. It wasn' there anymore. It was pretty sad but i just decided to have my meal right beside and walked to get a cab to E. Suwon CGV. I watched two movies Founder and Dancer. Dancer was super boring as it was a documentary movie. I wondered why there were so many people watching this movie.
Then, I rode on my dad's car to the restaurant to meet my uncles and auntie. It was a special meeting. I mean i never know when I could see them again. As the meeting ended and when first auntie grabbed my hand to bid farewell, I saw her wrinkles on her face and yes, it hit me hard that she was old. We all were getting old. Even my dad mom sis we all growing up. We are no longer 40s, 50s or our age like before. I never know when would be my last.
Got home and mom was a little furious as usual that I didn't book my ticket to E. Daegu. She would get furious as usual when things don't work out as she planned but yeah you know, I tried to calm myself trying to think positive so that there could be an improvement in me. But yeah, when she was like crossing the line that I felt, I got mad too that I could have said anything I would want to curse. Well, I don't know but after all we are family and we all do make mistakes. What I learned in army is that we all are different and we all got to learn to live together with each other. I guess I could apply that in here.
Forgive and move on.
Well yeah, and now it's 2pm and I am down to like an hour and a half before my train.
I thank God for this wonderful 4 days of leave and want to share my blessings to the surroundings.
Thank God for this day.
Amen.
Tuesday, April 18, 2017
Dawns in Daegu - D-392
So yeah, here comes another day of me typing out my story in this blog on this very night.
Well. my feelings.. Hmm I do not know. But yeah there are challenges all the time but its really about how I could control them and settle myself to be a settled stronger person I am.
Like you know at times when there are sports events and where there are time that I could be at fault there are times where I get on the edge of the sword, (well thats how I may feel but it may not be exactly that way) I do feel nervous and a little bit annoyed. Very annoyed at times actually.
Like when we played jokgu yesterday with my mates and some others, it was a little annoying for me at start as I wasn't trained properly and couldn't receive balls and stuff and it was a little hard playing as people got on my nerves although those could be just for fun and stuff. Yeah, I am learning to deal and they are solved when I be postiive so are fine.
There could be some moody days where I just don't want to be with these people him and who and I've learned to deal with such situations. Just be nice don't saybad things when I do not have anything good to say and rest. Just let that mood swing away as they are lovely after all. That's one thing I learned to deal in here.
And yeah, had a good time playing jokgu, I mean I put a point in learning all the time. My sadness that I couldn't play any further as the rain was too heavy.
Got back and was bathing just when corp Yoon came in to ask for change of duty timing. I was having such a lovely time tomorrow morning and he wanted to change that and i was a little unreasonable. I refused to do so but I felt a little guilty not helping him out. He even bought me a cheeetos at P.X and he is my platoon senior. Yeah, so I went to the duty plan sheet to see if I could find any way out for him and that was just when he came in to give some knocks and shits and yeah I didn't feel good as he was keep hitting and kicking. It wasn't like thosestrong punches but still I didn't feel good about it. It was good that I told him to stop firmly and well I am learning to deal with different people and I guess it is meaningful that I could learn and also learn to forget about such incidents as after all thinking rewinding of such incidents do not help after all.
Once again, I am back in here in this place. I will not forget the day I am having in here andI will not let go the time that I get in here either. I thank God that yesterday when I went to seminar room to study, i managed to finish what I wanted to, even though I wasn't in a very good mood.
Thank God for making me alive, please let others feel alive too and know you.
Thank Lord and
Amen.
Well. my feelings.. Hmm I do not know. But yeah there are challenges all the time but its really about how I could control them and settle myself to be a settled stronger person I am.
Like you know at times when there are sports events and where there are time that I could be at fault there are times where I get on the edge of the sword, (well thats how I may feel but it may not be exactly that way) I do feel nervous and a little bit annoyed. Very annoyed at times actually.
Like when we played jokgu yesterday with my mates and some others, it was a little annoying for me at start as I wasn't trained properly and couldn't receive balls and stuff and it was a little hard playing as people got on my nerves although those could be just for fun and stuff. Yeah, I am learning to deal and they are solved when I be postiive so are fine.
There could be some moody days where I just don't want to be with these people him and who and I've learned to deal with such situations. Just be nice don't saybad things when I do not have anything good to say and rest. Just let that mood swing away as they are lovely after all. That's one thing I learned to deal in here.
And yeah, had a good time playing jokgu, I mean I put a point in learning all the time. My sadness that I couldn't play any further as the rain was too heavy.
Got back and was bathing just when corp Yoon came in to ask for change of duty timing. I was having such a lovely time tomorrow morning and he wanted to change that and i was a little unreasonable. I refused to do so but I felt a little guilty not helping him out. He even bought me a cheeetos at P.X and he is my platoon senior. Yeah, so I went to the duty plan sheet to see if I could find any way out for him and that was just when he came in to give some knocks and shits and yeah I didn't feel good as he was keep hitting and kicking. It wasn't like thosestrong punches but still I didn't feel good about it. It was good that I told him to stop firmly and well I am learning to deal with different people and I guess it is meaningful that I could learn and also learn to forget about such incidents as after all thinking rewinding of such incidents do not help after all.
Once again, I am back in here in this place. I will not forget the day I am having in here andI will not let go the time that I get in here either. I thank God that yesterday when I went to seminar room to study, i managed to finish what I wanted to, even though I wasn't in a very good mood.
Thank God for making me alive, please let others feel alive too and know you.
Thank Lord and
Amen.
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