Dawns in Daegu - D-488

Here comes another night here in the army.

Days pass and days pass of me writing my story of diary in here but yet, maybe I haven't learned it to my heart to actually get it done. Maybe it would take some time yeah. I know I am going to make it happen I trust in myself and I am going to make it happen.

It's not about writing what happened today and writing out what I should have done and all but generally it wasn't such hopeful one. Like I mean it is hard dealing with him in the office. Sometimes he would just stare me in to face or he would comment or sigh about things which I do not know what's going wrong. Those moments make me think and make me uncomfortable. Plus, when he orders me to do something I really don't like it with memories of him making me do all the rubbish disposition the other time.

You see things can't always remain back due to hatred and jealousy. We've all got to move on. Of course, with some lessons. I learned from those moments that I clearly got to speak out for myself when there is a need to. Also, I learned to be stronger and learned to deal with different people. Although it is still a going on process. There are lessons and I am sure after all I will learn something.

There are times where I enjoy and be purely happy. But there are times when I am uncomfortable too.

Overall, for my behaviors today I am not very happy. I mean but don't get yourself to be the fault of all. But as a  person who is a learner, I should take better approach. I can't always think of yesterday. There has to be a today. And tomorrow.

It's the hardest lesson of my life to actually get used to it: to love all.

I love myself after all, for sitting here with heavy heart, trying and trying.

After all, I am a person who never gives up.

I am proud of that.

Hope there would be better news tomorrow.

Love you and Good night.