I hear the laughters, I hear the comments, I hear the quarrels and little tickles. This is home. This is where my root began from. This is where it all started.
After 36 days sine my first leave I am here at home again for my short 3days leave. Although this 3 days leave is really short, I am trying to make it as meaningful and useful as possible. It may not be as desirable in a way that I wasn't of a perfect mood from my bunk with the mates but yeah I am thankful to Lord for this day I am given as he gave me a break. He gave me a break to gain back my power to love the others.
Getting back home the only thought I had on the train was that I wanted to share a little joy to my parents. I wanted to spread some positive vibes to my family. I left my platoon late as my leave card wasn't on the spot. They printed new and I left reached Suwon at 11am. My mom was waiting for me and there was this thought in me that I should behave normal like how I behave to others too. I cannot leave this baby me to my parents for all my life. Thought this was a good opportunity. That night when I was upset at the admin room made me to trigger a change in my behavior. It wasn't working so great. It rather seemed like I wasn't on a good mood to my mom who was driving me to the temple. I was trying to think in all positive ways. After all, I had nothing much to do when I was at home. And greeting my dad's mom, in a way I respect my mom for respecting my dad's mom after all things that she went through.
However though, along the way, there were so many thoughts about how slow she was driving, parking and the matter of fact that we are at the temple. There were so many thoughts but I managed to control them down. I managed to get them down. For I knew that this was right.
As we were heading back home, we were really starving. I didn't have breakfast. Mom asked me several questions about what to eat and she asked me if i would want to go to Asheley Restuarant nearby. It was located at the Dongtan Metropolis. At first I said no in thought that I did not want to have any Western. However, after some thoughts I told my mom that I would want to eat at the Asheley. As we got there, my mom saw the heavy traffic and realized even if we get in, we will have to get queue number and etc. That was when I grumbled to mom that we should head back home. We left my army clothes at the laundry shop and had our lunch at the Gamjatang soup restaurant.
As we got back home, as I was using my laptop, I realized that Dongtan Metropolis was on the number one search list at Naver. I was just there man.. I knew something had happened when I saw it was number one. But I just hoped that it wasn't something to do with an accident. When I clicked and it loaded, I saw news that there was fire accident and 4 people had died from it. I was so terrified that I could have been in the accident too. I told mom about it and she was the one who was more surprised about this fact. She called my sis her friend dad talked about it.
I was playing FO3 and when late afternoon arrived, dad came back home. As dad came home, I stopped playing and we gathered at the living room. I was pretty awkward and mom was worried about my attitude that she was worried what if I was going through all those hardships that some of the soldiers located in the further side are going through such as bullying. She asked me tons of times if I had trouble with my bunk mates or my seniors. Everytime she ask me it makes me feel a little bit annoyed. It is because you know.. I may not feel it that way but when mom knows about what all had happened she might be worried or think in a wrong way. It could also be because I was lying in a way. But I don't think it is the best solution to tell mom about it. After all it is not bullying. It is me finding out how I am going to co-exist with people, not just Koreans but people. On top of that, I am not being bullied or being left out but more like being loved and cared for. It is unfair to let mom know about what is going on as she will only be worried after reading all those tear-triggering stories.
At night, I learned from my previous leave that if I leave the living room, they no loner continue the meal but just go for sleep. So I stayed. I stayed even though we had nothing to talk about. I stayed and see what will happen. We played Go-Stop and I was the winner after all. I learned the way to play and I emerged to be the winner. I earned \20000 and I bought my family a chicken. Walking outside to the shop with dad, it was such a wonderful experience. Listening to him father to son it was great. That was when I realized how I should be spending the rest of my leave. I want to know more about my family. Getting back home and drinking the Alcohol that I bought from the army, sis was going crazy with her song.
It was such a great day. I wish to spend such a lovely day with my family too tomorrow. I am glad that I am given this day for a break. I am ready to love them again. I will be stronger when I am back. I love God for this day and
Amen.
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