Yeah. I am back here in the cyber digital room again here in this my familiar place. Walking through the guardhouse, walking into the command room, seeing the people I know and being warmly welcomed, I had no moments to feel sad about booking in.
As soon as I got up to the second floor, I saw Corporal Son who is a close friend of mine was on duty today. It is always glad to see him in here. I saluted to the officer in charge and had a little chat as I saw my bunk mates outside the admin room. We went back to the bunk together and I was warmly welcomed. It does not matter whether I was being warmly welcomed or missed. It matters that I care for them and it matters that I actually miss them and love them. There is one thing I realized as I was going through some quarrels and upsetting things these days. It is that they are no longer another person. They are part of me and they are part of my family. They are not someone to get apart from just because of petty quarrel or misunderstandings. I wasn't sure when I was on the train getting back to Daegu whether I could greet them with a happy smile and being the usual me but as soon as I saw them at the toilet outside the admin room, there was no silence in the air.
I was asked by my platoon leader to follow him to the guardhouse to collect the hand phone. As we were walking he told me he had some top news to share about. First was that there was Super Junior Ryu Wook in the first floor at military band bunk. It was a little shocking as he was super star but wasn't that famous as I didn't really know about him. Second was that we will be having our marching on 15 to 17 of February. This was real shocking news as Marching is one tiring one. Really.
Being pumped up with all these news, I was excited to see him as we were getting back but did not get to see him. There were people around him all the time man marking him, as he was super star.
Got up and changed my clothes and mom called me. Now that she knew about our cell number she started using it to call me. She would call me when she needs me or when she misses me. Today, it seems like she missed me a little bit earlier than I did as I wanted to call her after cleaning session. She heard from my bunk mate joking that I had to write some report and she asked me if it was real. Hung up the phone changed up and got pumped up with news like Jaemin became the barber and stuff. After cleaning time, had long chit chat time with the seniors about football and etc. Got back to the bunk and saw Jaemin cutting for brother Wooyoung and had a little chat with the bunk mates and received a gift from Ji hoon. It was a sweet thought of him for him to hink for me. I was sorry as I didn't give him anything for his birthday. It was heart warming really. Anyways that was about me getting back to the camp. Other than that was me watching this movie called Lion with sis this morning. I had to get up late and watch the later one. I never regret for spending my morning with that movie as this was really worth it. The movie was great that I can call it one of the greatest movie I had ever watched. It was one great movie. It was about a boy finding his true mom in India and this was truly touching when they showed the real footage of him getting back to India to see his mom. Sis and I went to the book shop and I told her to choose one book that she would want to read. As I was telling her that, I was thinking should I ask her to get a self-improvement related books but I did not. I wouldn't read books that I do not like either. It is the first step that she actually finds books interesting that she starts reading.
It is my bad that I woke up too late to see dad before he leaves. Did not even say bye before he left for work.
Hours passed really quick that it became 4pm where I had to leave for train. Mom sis and I were at Lotteria waiting for time to pass. When I was there with mom and as mom was asking quesitons, I wasn't really favourable of that moment as I thought she was asking too much questions. But why does life so complicated. When I am about to leave and as she began taking photos of me with sis and as I hugged her before leaving, I felt love. I felt love. For mom and my family. Sat down on the train and prayed to God, God, next time when I get back, I wish to talk more with my parents, I wish to share my thoughts and let them know about myself more and to learn more about my parents more. I wish to do that. I wish to have great communication with parents. I hope I can achieve that sometime. I will try and I am going to make it happen.
Another thing is as I was on the train, I realized there is no need for any envy or jealousy. I always knew this but I hoped that this time I could really get it changed. After all, I would miss the time that I was with this people and miss what I have missed. In years to come when I look back the memories I had here, I would miss myself being friendly and easy-going with everybody like how I did with Marcus.
Another day is going to come and I can't wait to see what will happen in days to come.
I love myself for having gone through this day and having learned each day.
Being a grown man is to being able to embrace more people in life. See the bigger picture and love the others. Love my family and Lord.
Amen.
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