Dawns in Daegu - D-408

What a long time it had been almost been about a week not writing my story in here.

Well well not sure how my status was like back when I had written my latest story in here things have passed and time flows and yes we move on.

Right now, I guess major events would be that I lost a game for my bunk at starcraft and futsal competition. Starcraft was just for fun so it was alright but when I lost that futsal match it made me feel like losing becoming a sort of habit in me. I didn't want to admit but I took this futsal tournament a little seriously than others would. I mean, my form was coming up and I did want to prove to people how I could play better as a team. Especially with memories of me winning 5 streaks in futsal when we had like 18 people that night, that memory did help me feel like I could do this too as a team again.

It did not turn out to be the same like that night. It was a little different. I was trying to prove a point rather than enjoying as a team. It did not matter whether we would win or not though. I mean i meant it when i said i only hope we could enjoy this game. Lose was pretty serious. It was a heavy loss of 3goals difference. 2-1 was okay in the first half of it but conceding two straight goals at the start of the 2nd half was crucial. It did make us feel daunted.

After that day, it was like I lost something in my life. All that I had been looking out for through the past weeks had just gone like that in a loss. A heavy lose.

Playing futsal with seniors yesterday didn't give me much joy too. I couldn't enjoy to full. Well I know time would solve these either.

Well, after that day I was a little reluctant that I was talking so slowly and being a little needy and clingy. Yeah i was indeed. A little far from being the active and bright. Also, was a little different in behavior when especially Yang would prefer to talk to other guys than I did. Okay this does sound really gay but yeah I was a little disappointed that compared to how much I liked him it was not the same amount of love I received. But its true yeah that when people do have different behaviors in relationships. It does not matter whether they or he likes other people more or not it is about how much I do for the people. That's what matters the most and how I stay up right as a person. After all, I learn.

Thank God for this lovely day

Ane Amen.